Margaret Paul, Ph.D.

Margaret Paul, Ph.D. is the co-creator of Inner Bonding, a transformational six-step spiritual healing process. She is a best- selling author, noted public speaker, workshop leader, chaplain, educator, humanitarian, consultant, and Inner Bonding facilitator. She has been leading groups, teaching classes and workshops, and working with individuals, couples, partnerships and businesses since 1973. Margaret is passionate about evolving and teaching the process of Inner Bonding. Margaret is the co-author of Do I Have To Give Up Me To Be Loved By You? (over 1,000,000 copies sold), Free to Love, Do I Have To Give Up Me To Be Loved By My Kids?, Do I Have To Give Up Me To Be Loved By You?...The Workbook, Healing Your Aloneness, The Healing Your Aloneness Workbook, and author of Inner Bonding and the newly released, Do I Have To Give Up Me To Be Loved By God? Her books have been translated into ten languages: German, Italian, Danish, French, Spanish, Portuguese, Chinese, Japanese, Dutch and Hungarian. Healing Your Aloneness and The Healing Your Aloneness Workbook are best- sellers in Germany. Margaret is in the process of completing a software program, called SelfQuest, which will be donated to prisons and schools, and eventually sold to the general public. SelfQuest is a powerful tool for emotional healing, spiritual growth, healing relationship issues and developing personal responsibility. Margaret has three grown children. In her spare time she is an artist.

Published on 11/4/2007

Jacob, a participant in one of my telephone support groups, was exploring the fact that he generally didn't like to be touched He was sharing with the group a situation that used to happen with his mother

Jacob, a participant in one of my telephone support groups, was exploring the fact that he generally didn't like to be touched. He was sharing with the group a situation that used to happen with his mother.

"She used to sit me on the couch with her and grab my arms and look intently into my eyes, telling me how much she loved me and how important to her I was. I don't know exactly how to describe what I felt when she did that."

"Was it a yucky feeling?" asked Sarah, another participant.

"Yes, that's exactly the word! Yucky! So yucky! Why did it feel so yucky?"

"Because," Sarah said, "It was emotional incest. I know all about this yucky feeling. My father did the same thing with me."

Emotional incest occurs when a parent energetically uses a child to fill an inner emptiness that the parent is not taking responsibility for filling. When a parent abandons himself or herself, that parent might latch on to a child to fill the black hole that occurs from self-abandonment. While it might not be as traumatic as sexual incest, it occurs for the same reasons - a wounded parent using a child addictively to get love and avoid pain.

"Oh no!" said Phillip, another participant in the support group. "I think I might be doing that to my 15 year old daughter. No wonder she's been locking her bedroom door."

"What have you been doing Phillip?" I asked.

"Lots of times when I'm feeling badly or when Leitha (his wife) and I are having problems, I go into her room before she goes to sleep and tell her how upset I am. I complain to her about things that are going on in my life. I thought I was being a good dad - you know, spending time with her. But lately she has been asking me not to come into her room. Since I started this group, I've been realizing how much I am not taking care of my own feelings. When I feel bad, I often blame Leitha or complain to my daughter."

"Phillip, how wonderful that you are realizing this! How terrific that you are open to learning about this! What a huge difference it is going to make to your daughter for you to start to take responsibility for your own feelings."

"You know," said Phillip, "I'm excited about this. My daughter has been having some problems lately and I think this is why. I really do want to be a loving father, and I can see that I haven't understood that I have to be loving to myself before I can really love her in the way she needs to be loved. This is going to make a big difference in my relationship with Leitha too."

"Sarah and Phillip," said Jacob, "I am so grateful to both of you for putting a name to what I experienced as a child. It is really a relief to know that there was a good reason for the yucky feelings, and for not liking to be touched. I think that I have associated most touch with that yucky feeling of being pulled at to fill up my mother. I feel like knowing this, maybe I can start to give normal hugs to the people who are important to me."

A parent with a gaping inner hole that comes from inner abandonment cannot just stop the emotional incest. Certainly you can stop the overt actions, but to stop the energetic pull, you need to be doing your own inner work so that you learn to fill your own inner emptiness.